From The Heart

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(jika sang pembaca rasa nak muntah apabila membaca ayat2 sang penulis yang skema, silakan lakukan apa yang sang pembaca mahu sama ada pejam mata and baca atau tak baca apa pun :) up to you, hehehe)

Entah kenapa, terdetik hati untuk menulis lagi pada kali ini... perasaan yang datang dari ilhamnya Allah yang Maha Berkuasa atas segala sesuatu. Baru-baru ini sang penulis sering mengoreksi niat dalam berbuat sesuatu.. mengoreksi diri kerana setiap niat yang bukan kerana Allah, lebih baik lupakan sahaja, bukan mendapat pahala ibadah namun jauh dari itu, barangkali membawa kita lari dari Allah Tuhan yang satu..

Apa terjadi pada sang penulis? Apa yang sang penulis telah buat pada diri sang penulis sendiri belakangan ini? Terdapat banyak perubahan yang sang penulis sendiri mulai sedari pada diri ini, yang mana ada yang baik dan ada yang buruk. We all change, and not all change we made berlaku dengan kita sedari...

Often we faced a lot of examination and test in our life especially as a student. Final semester examination? Mid semester examination are the example of the test we faced in our student life? However, I think the test given by HIM is the most challenging for it involve not only the dunya, but also akhiraah...

I really afraid that I will not going to pass this test by Allah, it is much tougher than what I think.. I dunno whether my problem is consider to be call as problem, maybe it is the test by Allah to strengthen and improve my IMAN and relationship with Allah... although a lot of people come and leave in our life, He always be there beside us, which never leave us.

For Allah, I dunno how to explain to the people regarding the test You have put to me right now, I just want to make dua' and prayer so that You know what I feel along the way I faced this difficulties. There is no other place better than You for me to express what I feel.. only You know the thing that keep flying here and there in my mind right now..

Besides that, not many can I do to go out from this types of obstacles, I juz want to make dua' and prayer for the one that appear to be involve in my problem and hope that You can help me to go out of this test. Of course that gold words I think especially for us as a student and most after all is as a servant of HIM. That is dua'+effort+tawakkal=Result

Kuala Lumpur.

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